on my to-do list.

i want to learn how to take full advantage and engage with interactions. there have been so many moments i can think of now where i could've taken the risk, taken the practice to let my guard down and get stronger, get truer to who i really wanna be. 


on a bright note: i've been getting better at the above "to-do" but i can always use a little more bold, a little more true. a little more going for what i actually want. doing what i actually want to do. (and there's almost no need to say within reason, bc i unreasonably don't do it. if that makes sense... )

this song

popped up on my Pandora playlist, and has been on repeat. 
it's actually pretty sad. 
wild, the mix between how upbeat the music/her voice sounds (at times) and how tragic the lyrics are. 
but it's a good song so here: 

it takes

every ounce, of everything i have, of me to not believe that i'm going to spend the rest of my life alone. and it's hard work believing.